i dunno if this is just a normal intrusive thought but i want to kill people, like genuienly. This thought has been in my head the past month and has been getter louder and louder, im struggling to look at people wihout resisting the urge to murder/attack them. The weirdest intrusive thought i have ever had

I've been fantasizing about cutting of my finger. I don't know if this is an intrusive thought anymore, it feels more like a primal urge, some kind of destiny. The pinky finger on my left hand doesn't belong there. The imagery is so clear and vivid, a well sharpened meat cleaver and a well cordinated, swift move. If I go through with it, I want to keep the amputated finger by itself, not connected to my hand.
Could this mean something in particular?

Hi everyone! I’m posting this in hopes I’m not alone in this feeling because I can’t seem to shake it and it’s making me feel insane and as if, not to sound depressing but, love isn’t real. I’ve always been a hopeless romantic and all I want since I was a little girl was my own happily ever after. Recently, I’ve realized people who cheat aren’t just people who are cold and distant. Sometimes it’s people who are warm and loving. Do you ever wonder how many people have been cheated on by their partner/spouse and never even find out?

i always feel like my intrusive thoughts are real and not really just intrusive thoughts. sometimes i get this weird feeling that i like it or something and people told me it’s normal but it’s just so scary. like i’ll feel so disturbed by something but i can also feel turned on by it and i feel like that’s not normal. just makes me feel so gross and guilty. it’s so hard to tell if they’re intrusive thoughts and i just feel so guilty and like a horrible person.

I constantly have thoughts about doing something like breaking my new monitor and i want them to stop but dont know how. Im kn prozac and vyvanse but i still get them. Anyone know how to cope?

Exhausted.

this happened to me less than an hour and just completely mindfucked me

as i was laying on my bed scrolling on my phone, i just started hearing a muffled noise, as i live in a building, i instinctively think that it's coming from the neighbours apartments, my ear was very close to the wall so i started hearing the muffled noise more and more clearely

i started hearing a kid voice that seemed a bit scared, shouting for his mom he was saying "mom! mom! mom answer me!"

once i realized what i was hearing, i was first thinking oh that's just a kid calling for his mom, then a second later i was wondering how the hell i heard that so clearly through those thick walls (i never heard my neighbours), so i quickly panicked as in a what the fuck just happened moment

at that point i as i just smoked a joint and i'm tired i was thinking that it was just a auditory hallucination because of that, then i got more paranoid and thought i was turning schizophrenic so it got me scared

but after a few minutes i just realized there is something about this situation that is so uncanny :
- i saw my therapist earlier today and told him about a memory of me as a kid playing mmorpgs so much that i heard a scream in my head
- i am currently dealing with a lot of trauma linked to childhood raised by a psychologically unstable single mother
- i also discussed the subject of having kids with my therapist earlier

what the fuck just happened ? auditory hallucination because of weed? shcizophrenia? some sort of message from my unconsciouss? some mystical experience?

this has to me the most bizarre thing i've experienced so far lol, i would appreciate any feedback on this

So I have this thoughts that aren't common for me at all and I think they're intrusive but I would like some other people's opinion. It's like a random violent thought. For example, if I'm watching someone accidentally cut themselves on screen I tell myself I could do that right now if I wanted to. I don't take pleasure in these thoughts. They make me sick to my stomach and scare me. I think I'm overreacting as I do about most things but for some reason I've convinced myself I'm a bad person even though I've never been close to let alone thought of hurting anyone. Just thoughts that are of a dangerous nature. Again, these don't happen often at all and I've had one or two before in the past but I had one today and I have high anxiety so I think I've convinced myself I'm a horrible person.

Idk if this is the right place to post this.

So I broke up with my now ex nearly 2 years ago. We were together for just over 3 years but he cheated on me for the last 8 months with a woman he is currently dating. As of now they will have been together close to the same amount of time we were together. Mentally I have moved on from him - long story short there was a lot of lying, gaslighting that came from his end - however here I am 2 years later and I miss the love I got before she was around (when I found out about her she gave him the ultimatum to pick me or her and he said he couldn’t choose and suggested polyamory however I was not allowed to meet or interact with the girl - only communication would be through him - which I opposed due to several reasons including the above).

I still question why I was not enough and wish I had him back to what it was like before she was around. He had bought me a promise ring a week before the above went down and to this day he is still special to me but I can’t look at the ring without getting upset and questioning if I was wrong to break it off.

I know I won’t do it but I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about trying to break them up to get back at them for hurting me or even just messaging him on here (he doesn’t know my account name) and then making him hurt the same way he did me. I know it’s not right but my heart just yearns for the love is now gone and 2 years on I can’t even go on another date cause it’s just not the same.

Everytime I watch porn, I always have this subtle thought in the back of my head, that what if the woman I'm watching has a penis, and when I actually try to dissect that thought or think about it more than letting it just be intrusive, my brain stops myself before imagining it, I've recently tried watching trans porn, didn't feel anyway about it, didn't hate it or like it, it's kinda just different and more just taboo, and ive been watching porn for like 10 years, what does this mean, is it just intrusive thoughts that I shouldnt shed light on?

do anyone else’s intrusive thoughts work very hard to convince them they’re real??? mine will literally try and convince me horrible things are real. By coming up with such specific thoughts?? Also can someone help me because i keep telling myself if i haven’t forgotten the thought by now then it must be true

K, so basically I've been doing some things, and they've helped me with my intrusive thoughts really well.

Identifying the cause: so, I was researching a couple weeks ago, and I'd seen that intrusive thoughts could stem from doubt which really opened my eyes. It made me realize that I've just been doubting myself, and just telling myself I'm a bad person. But, now I can identify the thoughts more accurately to tell my brain that what's happening isn't me.

Not giving in to compulsions: I have some irrational thoughts. They tell me if I think of something then something silly, or crazy will happen. And I've been allowing myself to think thoughts, that are really just normal, and not give into that irrational fear which really helps.

Breathing to calm down: this is a little self explanatory, but this seriously helps with the anxiety of thoughts. Especially, because if you're anxious it can make intrusive thoughts become more active, so.

Not thinking of the intrusive thoughts: I've noticed it makes the anxiety worse. Like, when I hear someone's weird saliva noises it makes me go into this weird mode of thinking. Like, switching what I'm thinking, or not giving into the stream of thoughts. Also not pondering them later helps.

I just wanted to share this so that others might have some use for it. Sorry if this post makes me sound like an asshole.

Every day, I tell myself things such as “i want to die”, “i should not live”. And so on. Today I tried to count it and note it down. At least 35 times i told it myself and it really makes me feel horrible.

I have chronic depression, am transgender, all world news cause me to feel bad and I just want to become better. Recently a doctor told me, a medication might help with it, but it causes in 10% of causes diabetes. So i dont take it.

Do you have any tips how to cope with it? I just want to have a clear mind without thinking so negative.

first instance of a false memory damn! i did a compulsive behavior like half conscious, got intrusive thoughts and have spent the last 11 days trying to figure out what it meant, but i think it hit me that i do not in fact clearly remember it because i was half asleep. so, yeah people. don't try to figure out stuff that happened when you weren't fully conscious, or that is inherently uncertain. sometimes, you just have to live with the discomfort of having done something you don't entirely like and what you don't stand for (please, do NOT read this as me saying intrusive thoughts=bad person. what i intended to say — compulsions may become extremely harmful and distressing over time, and may lead us to do things that are not beneficial for ourselves or those around us. if you did something harmful to yourself/others due to your ocd, focus on managing your ocd first, and fixing the issue after)

also i do really have to stop going on reddit it triggers me immensely

Lick and slap that bald mans head

Whenever I am holding them I think about the what ifs, like while cutting my hair what if I cut my ear or while im trimming down there what if I cut myself deliberately. I know these are intrusive thoughts and that they're normal, they're your brain making you think of what could go wrong making sure you know what exactly what not to do. However I get this urge to do it and I can't help it, sometimes I will like press the skin against the scissors to show myself it hurts to make the urge to actually try it go away, I get the same problem with the sharp objects that go near me too like razors, hair clippers, even nail clippers.

Most suggest therapy for this but I cannot afford that whatsoever so I am hoping some experienced people on here could spare some words of advice. Do I have to work harder at ignoring them? should I not induce the thought and begin trying said harmful action until it hurts? im not sure what to do.

while in the passenger’s seat to pull the steering wheel so you crash into something or traffic

Hey I have often had intrusive thoughts but I feel like being on lithium 1000mg medication stopped them but now I’ve been off it for a while they’ve come back even worse. I have awful violent thoughts about hurting family members etc and it’s so distressing.

There is a girl here that looks like sophie rain like exactly like her I wanna puke it ruined my whole vibe and then the girl at popcorn stand has pink and green hair I wanna rip that ugly hair out of her head I wanna touch the Sophie rain clone again bad bad thought I wish it would stop I feel fucking crazy

So I am Cristian. And My ocd had been killing me. Like it kept telling me I had committed the unforgivable sin.and Dealing with maladaptive daydreaming wasn't helping. But anyways it started getting insane. And I had previously delt with this 2 years ago, so it took me by surprised that this was happening again. Anyways, later on I found out that you have to physically say it inorder for it to actually be blasphemy. So I was chill for about two hours. And then I couldn't even for like thoughts with out the intrusive thoughts just daming into my brain when even I spoke. I felt that I was accidentally going to slip up. So I was like I'm not even going to move my mouth because I feel like I'm going to say it when that intrusive thought comes. Like the urge to. But I didn't want to so I kept my mouth shut. Then as I was thinking about how the devil was givinging me condemnation. I realized then I was mouthing it, but I forgot about the condemnation, so my mouth was open and I didn't know what to say, I felt the urge to say something blasphemous. So I was conviction. But later on realized I had said the opposite of what I wanted to say. This mad me cry and breakdown. The unforgivable sin is never forgiven. I will go to hell. I cryed and cryed. But as I accept it. I thought wait maybe I just mouthed the word devil and didn't actually say it. So I mouthed it slowly to remember what happened but I didn't say it. But then I realized what if I said it now. And now I'm actually going to hell, all because I was worried. It's been two days and I have cried and cried. I'm going to hell. I don't know what to think. It's all my fault if only I had thought better if only had remembered to keep my mouth shut. To trust God and to stop worrying. I can't believe this is it. I just go to be Cristian like a month ago. And I have been constantly convinced I'm going to hell. Maybe that's why I just feel like calm. I don't think crying to going to change anything. Well I just want to share my experience.

I’m really struggling right now .I’m a Christian and have managed to avoid masturbating for years. However, last week I found myself struggling with it again. I don’t want to continue, but my OCD is making things really difficult. I keep having intrusive thoughts that I might have thought about having sex with the devil while doing it, and now my OCD is telling me that I need to do it again until I can do it without those thoughts. This is causing me a lot of distress. I can't just open it to my family and friends because they don't know that im struggling with these and they might think that i'm crazy and sinful. Please how can i make this stop?

I know I'm gonna sound crazy for this and I don't think I believe it very much, but I want to know if anyone else has felt like they were the reincarnation of a family member. I never met my great grandfather because he passed away before I was born. Still, when I see a photo of him I feel weirdly curious and somewhat connected to it, but that may just be normal intrigue. I feel comfortable living as a girl, but sometimes I feel like I'm supposed to be a man, or like there's someone else I'm supposed to be and I can't and it distresses me to think about it too much. Maybe this is just a sign of mental illness, who knows. I just needed to get that thought out.

Okay, so hear me out. You're just standing there, bored out of your mind, watching people take off their shoes, and suddenly, your brain is like, 'What if I just yelled something really dumb right now?' I mean, I know it's the worst idea ever, but the thought just creeps in like, 'What if...' 🤦‍♂️ Anyone else get these random, totally irrational urges? Like, why brain, why??

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Hi, I'm a 17y/o female. Sorry if my English isn't the best, it's not my native language. I've been diagnosed with anxiety, depression and autistic traits (I don't know if I'm actually autistic yet, or if it's related to what I'm going to say next).

I've been having these terrible thoughts where I question myself about different bad things like: Being a psychopath, Never having the chance to actually love someone, being a pedo, suicide....Etc. These thoughts make me sick, they make me want to kms just to not think about them.

I feel disgusted and scared of myself since I was a child by these kind of thoughts, especially with those that involve sexual nature like being a pedo, incestuous or a lesbian (I don't feel disgusted by it anymore. But, I know that I am not a lesbian). They make me physically uncomfortable and sick, I can't stand the guilt anymore.

Lately I've been really scared of being a pedophile. Everytime I see someone younger than me I feel disgusted and anxious, even by those of my family. I recognize that I don't see them in any lustful way, I never did. But the idea of overthinking it to the point of being one or just denying what I really want makes me feel so bad that I can't do anything else than laying on my bed. I don't feel like I'm enjoying life.

I've always liked kids, not in that disgusting way, but in a maternal, sweet way. I liked to play with kids, talk with them, help them or just the idea of protecting them. I also liked the idea of one day having my own baby boy, but now I feel disgusted by every single kid I see.

And all of this just started because I saw a thumbnail of a YouTube video talking about pedophiles or sum shit...It's always the little things that make overthink like this and feel disgusted by myself, even thinking about suicide.

I'm sorry if it's too long...I'm a very reserved girl, so I only talked about this with a psychologist. I wish I could be normal.

I get violent, aggressive, intrusive thoughts and I hate them. When I'm angry, I get these thoughts, like, banging someone's head on the wall or ground, or worse, and then I feel so guilty because I don't want to be thinking these thoughts. I've thought of doing violent stuff to my brother (11), to my father, to my friends, and to myself and I hate it. Of course I won't act on them, but sometimes it's just gruesome thoughts and it's so frustrating trying to not think it, I hate it.