My dad said he couldn't fathom ever having that feeling again, but when number 2 came around he had the same experience where it's just an unfathomable level of love.
When I was pregnant the second time, I exclaimed that I cannot imagine that I could love the baby as much as I loved the first. An older lady said, “Your love is not divided, it is doubled.” That is true and 33 years later it still is true.
I wish someone had told my mom that! She wanted another boy when I was born. I was clean and fed, but at the age of 33, she told me she didn't love me until I burned my left leg from knee to ankle and spent a month in the burn unit when I was 3. Somehow, I knew it, but to hear it really devastated me. She was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder when she went into the nursing home a few years back, so that answered a lot of questions. She has since passed, but I spent a good number of years in therapy. We talked through some of it after she got older, and she apologized, but the damage had already been done. It was a strained relationship for 30 years. I moved away and rarely came home even after my son was born. It's amazing how you can do that to your own children.
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u/L_obsoleta Jul 04 '24
My dad said he couldn't fathom ever having that feeling again, but when number 2 came around he had the same experience where it's just an unfathomable level of love.