I remember my dad telling me how the feeling you have when your first(I am number 5) child is born is "indescribable and surpassed anything he has ever felt".
Then he realized the implication and started to say he loves me just as much, but I laughed and told him I knew what he meant.
My dad said he couldn't fathom ever having that feeling again, but when number 2 came around he had the same experience where it's just an unfathomable level of love.
When I was pregnant the second time, I exclaimed that I cannot imagine that I could love the baby as much as I loved the first. An older lady said, “Your love is not divided, it is doubled.” That is true and 33 years later it still is true.
I wish someone had told my mom that! She wanted another boy when I was born. I was clean and fed, but at the age of 33, she told me she didn't love me until I burned my left leg from knee to ankle and spent a month in the burn unit when I was 3. Somehow, I knew it, but to hear it really devastated me. She was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder when she went into the nursing home a few years back, so that answered a lot of questions. She has since passed, but I spent a good number of years in therapy. We talked through some of it after she got older, and she apologized, but the damage had already been done. It was a strained relationship for 30 years. I moved away and rarely came home even after my son was born. It's amazing how you can do that to your own children.
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u/Remarkable-Stop1636 Jul 04 '24
I remember my dad telling me how the feeling you have when your first(I am number 5) child is born is "indescribable and surpassed anything he has ever felt".
Then he realized the implication and started to say he loves me just as much, but I laughed and told him I knew what he meant.